on butts

Master and I ran into an old…. friend yesterday . And has always had a brush on me so… whilst I was leading these two around they were well behind me commenting on my, well, behind and it got me thinking on my relationship with my butt. I have always liked my rear, or at least since I’ve had an opinion on it and I think that started in the fifth grade.
I am a (very) white girl… as in glow-in-the-dark white. In the fifth grade I hung out with 3 black girls and one day my friend Ashley said, “Most white people have flat butts but you, you have a nice half a globe” pretty much out of nowhere. I guess I took this to heart because even in middle school when “Baby Got Back” came out it gave me reason to be proud of what my momma gave me as it were.
Now have a big butt comes in handy, as Master has more to spank. So no, I am not your skinny girl but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

on kneeling

THERE I was- kneeling at work.
I was washing the slicer rails in the deli where I work. These rails start at roughly knee height and go to about the floor,so kneeling made sense. Otherwise I’d be squatting it up-side down. But I reflected then about kneeling and it’s sanctity. One usually only kneels at a religous service or if submissive, at the feet of one’s Dom(me). Some would say this, too is a type of religion. And I guess, in a way, I was serving a master at that time… work. The master who pays me for my service ,which in turn helps me serve my family by being able to support them. Just a glimpse of insight, I suppose.

Catching Up.

So I’ve not posted in forever and decided to change that post haste. Our ever-changing dynamic has, well changed. We have both grown more comfortable with our roles and life is much better for it. Our household has gone through a rule change: for 1/2 hour after every meal all 3 of us clean. This includes our toddler. Varying success right now, but I’m glad we have come to the realization that I may be submissive but I am still only human and can’t both work and be the only one doing housework. House hubby/Master needs to help and our kid needs to learn to help, too.
Kink-wise I recently found that I LOVE being slapped in the face. Confusing to me but I will go with it. Master just needs to miss my ears (cuz…ow.) We’ve been finding more playtime which means less sex sometimes but equally fullfilling (if not more) experiences. I am one happy kitty!

((cat)) pt 1

She wakes up in a strange room. It look like your every-day living room, except… bars are in front of her. She realizes she is an a dog crate. A quick assessment shows that she has straps keeping her knees bent, socks of some sort attached to her hands and… a tail? Hmm.
A lovely woman strides into the room, bending over to expose a lovely view off cleavage. “hey lil cat. Are you ready to come out? No talking now.”
She is confused but crawls out of the cage when it is opened, mewing a question.
“Oh sweetie, maybe you don’t remember but you signed up for this. A sort of retreat?” A well-manicured hand scritches the top of her head. “To discover yourself?.” And at that the woman sashays over to the armchair and sits.
She wanders around the room, noting a basket full of kitty toys. Using her hand as a paw she begins to bat at some yarn. “good cat. We should get along just fine!”

Happy Holidays!

It sure has been a crazy couple off weeks but I am so blessed with the people in my life it was completely worth it! Christmas was full of excitement especially with a 2 yr old around! New Year’s eve was my favorite as we rung in the new year with a verbal renewal of our contract an a kiss to seal it :D Master is soo romantic sometimes. One lucky kitty here purr purr.
Master had to go console a friend whose mother passed away today, which is keeping him gone overnight. Thus I am up at 2 =in the morning. Being away from him is always hard, but I’ll live. Hey, maybe things will get…comforting over there and he’ll have a steamy tale to tell ;P We can dream eh?


So I have been reading a lot of the comic Robot Hugs and it has gotten me thinking about the complexity that is me/ my life. One post that really stood out for me was Identity Shift and I can relate to it very well in my own path to finding myself. I mean I’ve been a fur, a androgyne,a trans man and just plain royally confused. Right now I’m a tom boy, I guess… (is that a title?) or someone who is mostly feminine on the outside but mostly a guy underneath. Ah well things change and even though as an Aspie it is hard for me to deal with as such…. I’m slowly coming to terms with it.
Similar things have been happening in my dynamic. My Master is gender non-conforming too,but more femme (but born male) and when he’s at his girliest I tend to be a lot more Dominant.I’ve always been this way with females in any situation but… it’s been fun being a switch, which surprises me. Looks like I broke another box ;)


So I’m taking a break from the 30 days meme. Life here has been interesting. Finally got medicine for my knee’s arthritis. I have had arthritis since I was 14 or so. Pregnancy had fixed it for a while but now it is back in full force in my left knee. It with the meds I’m doing better. Umm… More tomorrow I think.

30 days of subission- day 6

Sorry to whomever wants to read this… I’ve been really busy lately and will be more dilligent in the future…

6) What do you feel are the roots of your submission? Do you think it has something to do with childhood? Is it a relationship management tool as in the practice of domestic discipline? Is it a sexual thrill or something else?

I am not quite sure of the roots of my submission, but most likely they lie in the depths if my chikdhood or AS. It is a sexual thrill and just… where I need to be sometimes.

RIP Nemo :’(

Today one of my fish died. He was a fancy (overbred) goldfish and he got is tail caught (an subsequently torn to shreds) twice today so…I did the merciful thing. Very sad. Still have 3 others… Poppy, SharkBait and Arianna. But I am quite sad about Nemo.

days 4&5

Sooo… I’ve slacked off and am now doing a 2-for-one special!

4) Do you switch into a dominant role at any time? If you are in a domestic discipline relationship, are there things that you maintain control over? Are you a “switch” in BDSM terms? If not, have you ever thought about it or given thought to why it’s not for you?

The only time I normally switch to a more dominant role is when my Master wants me to…. so I suppose it is then service topping. The only other time that it may come up is with another cisfemale… I tend to feel more masculine/ powerful in that sort of situation, espacially in a threeesome. Like Alpha sub or somethin’. I am uncomfortable being dominant for any length of time with Master tho… feels hella awkward.

5) Have you been or are you in a dominant/submissive dynamic relationship or is this new to you? Have you been in more than one D/s relationship? How were they the same? How were they different? What is unique about your relationships in your mind?

Thisis my first D/s relationship. Ummm… not sure how to answer the rest of this, sorries.